A Letter to Mom

March is a bittersweet month for me. On one hand there's so much to celebrate. It's Ava's 6th birthday, my birthday, my sister's anniversary, etc… And on the other hand March marks the anniversaries of my grandpa and my mom's passing.

This 16th, it will be two years. Two hard years. I wish that it would get easier, but I don't think it ever will. So much has happened in two years I wish my mom was here for. The girls have grown up so much and reached so many milestones and another grandbaby was born.

 

I'm still reminded of her everyday. There is always something I see, hear, or remember that brings up memories of my mom. When I see photos of moms/daughters on Facebook. When I hear my co-worker talking on the phone with her mom every morning... I get sad.

A letter to my mom:

 

Dear mom,

I can't believe it's been two years since you've been gone. I cannot explain in words how much I miss you. Every. Single. Day. I know that if we could talk the first thing you would want to know is how your grandbabies are doing. Ava has grown up so much. She is still such a good girl. She is a great big sister. Recently she lost her fourth tooth. She is taking ballet and tap and in May will be her second recital. She talks about you sometimes and it makes me smile so big because she remembers. Every time I show her a picture of you she says she misses you.

I know you want to know about Lily. I remember how much she used to make you laugh. She makes all of us laugh. She's just like Seal, very silly. She has endless energy and sometimes it can be exhausting. She has been doing very well in Pre-k. Her teachers tell me what a good student she is. Lily is very attached to me. I think she struggles with not being the baby of the family anymore. Remember me giving you a hard time? I think this is pay back.

 

And let's talk about your new grandbaby, Levi! Oh mom, you would just love him. He is the sweetest, happiest baby. So handsome. He is a very easy baby and his smile would just melt your heart. I wish I could remember your Vietnamese songs you used to sing to the girls. I do remember the forehead game! I'm going to teach him that tonight! I so wish that he would be able to know you like all the other grandkids do. I'll make sure to talk about you and show him pictures of you.

Seal, Anthony and I are still very close. I remember you telling us to love each other and stick together. We are all doing okay. Anthony got a new job. Seal is busy all the time as usual. You would be proud of us all.

I hope you are looking down on us with a smile. I know you are watching out for us and praying for us always. I love you so much. I want you to know I'll never forget you. It may be two years since you left us but I carry you with me everywhere. I know one day I'll get to kiss you and hug you again.  

Miss and love you always,

Your Quyen